the second trimester with our dharma baby
the second trimester has been one of growth, rethinking, reframing, breathing deeply, sitting long, waiting lovingly, patiently watching and listening as life passes by slowly and beautifully. our child is moving every day more and more. they are very loved and anticipated.
a month ago i went to a 10 day silent meditation that turned my life upside down in the best way possible. through those ten days i learned to be with myself and happy with myself. the three things that have been the biggest changes since then are that i am excited about life, excited about bringing life into the world, and okay with all the turmoil and hardships going on around me. all three of which i have never been able to say before. since then i’ve noticed obvious changes in my mind heart and body. i have been sick for a constant 3 years, been miserable because of it. but since vipassana (what the meditation is called) i have not been sick, it has been life changing. i thought i would forever be an unhealthy person, a tired, drained, stressed, sick and depressed person; but i feel healthy, happy, and open to life. i am such a better environment for this baby to grow in now and that brings me so much joy.
i still have sorrow and sadness, much of it. i still get lonely often, but i know that it is not forever. change is always happening. i have been able to embrace my sadness as well as my happiness and allow myself to notice my emotions and sit with them all.
if you would like to help gideon and i with physical objects for our baby or with money for gideon to take off work for a few weeks in July when the baby comes, this is a link to our baby registry.